pai seh. will reply everyone after i m back i m super tiredddd and i haven pack my frigging luggage. take care guys. =)

Anyway, was so SHOCKED bout timothy's results. that guy got triple A and A2 for gp. like totally unexpected. haha. congrats man. yup yup. anyway, i was damn damn scared bout results in the morning. was semi-awake at 8am. den kept hearing my phone vibrating. tot it was jac messaging me cuz i late...so i went to see the messages and saw good luck msges. AFTER WHICH panic attacks started hitting on me. like it was really super terrible. couldn't get back to sleep...walked ard the house many times went online blah blah blah...finally forced myself to go sleep.

On our way to school...miss tey called me (cuz i was trying to get her for the whole morning). Den the whole conversation jus made my heart sank totally. it was one of those moment when i really strained my ears and tried to pick up some tell-tale signs bout my results. and obviously it was quite nerve-wrecking. anyway, in the end miss tey told me my phy n maths results. i was like even MORE worried for my econs since she CLAIMED that she din see my econs grade. i was like tinking must be damnnnn BAD that's why she din want to tell me. ayy. anyway jus thruout the whole freaking phonecall she kept asking me to face the music and if i tink i felt okay after the papers den i shld be okay after receiving results and if i din...jus face the music lor. like...totally nerve-wrecking hearing that line.

Ay anyway, got to school damn soon n started finding miss tey and mr beetsma. find and find...super gan jiong. den suddenly saw mrs lim econs one...shot THE question n she said A. damnnnn relieved. OKOK. the main highlight of the day was my results slip was kept with the hod and not with beetsma....WHY? cuz i din return this FMATHS PRELIMS BOOK that i borrowed from the library before prelims. so yeah...i have to return the book and pay teh fines before they give me my freaking results. fine was 30 bucks. ERGH.

Overall felt okay bout results...jus that really...felt my fm was a waste. oh wells.

thanks all the well-wishers. yup yup. appreciate it a lot a lot. =)

okok...i need to be a fren to a fren now. do the things that i am suppose to do. ciaos!

Anyway, read thesie's blog...she said long engagement was good and i have to absolutely agree that. it was damn damn damn good. the way they tell the story...especially the war was damn interesting. it was told from different perspectives and who saw what...together the female lead piece tog what cld have happened exactly that day. ay. but there were some gross part initially (that's why it was m18) like the shooting of their own hands. man. haha. OH YA. and i must be the only weird one who finds that the show constantine is not nice. not nice as what everyone is making out to be. oh wells.

Howl's moving castle was nice...hmm...save for some parts which i super dun understand. luckily the animation was damn cute...especially mark, the dog, the stupid old grandma...haha...just neutralise the effects of me not understanding why sophie will change into young woman at some parts of the show. like totally no explanation can. ah...and the music..was good but not as nice as spirited away though they are both composed by the same guy. haha. can foresee mr ng playing the piece soon and the choir pple singing the songs too...

ok i need to go...update second part later. haha.
crisis? haha. i need something exciting.

one reason why i don wan to be an accountant is cuz i see no purpose in spending the rest of my working life (which is the next few decades) trying to do accounts which is all man-made. ay. i dono how to express well whatever i wanna say. it's like..everything is man-made. prices of food can range from 1 buck to few hundreds and they are all set by man. deprivation of the so-called better food (as defined by man again) deprives the poorer ones from enjoying them n thus their deprivation, unhappiness and suffering are caused by man.

what defines life? misery n sufferings. when u buy something that ur fellow peer cant afford, u feel good about life cuz u have it n he/she don have it. it's so sad that life has come to be defined as this. when u feel pretty about urself (because the pple around u r all ugly), u feel as if u r the top of the world when many pple come asking for ur number n not those ard u. u feel good bout life too. how bout those ard u? it's so tiring to see the world turning this ugly. defining life thru all these unnecessary pursuits.

I wanna go back to studying. aprilyn is right. we shld just start our lives anew and hope we can just find the direction we want and of cuz, the pple ard us to be how and what we wan them to be. i m so tired of being lied at, made use of and just trying to struggle my way thru each day. now i regret not studying hard enough to get a scholarship. at least aprilyn will have the advantage of having a brand new environment to start afresh. as for me. i can only regret not studying hard, dropping my forth subject, not setting goals for myself, not planning my future well cuz i was indulging in some unnecessary pursuit. if given another chance, i will want to study well and hard.

yes ping u r right right too. there's nth much we can ask for cuz everything is going good for us. it's just that we feel very empty. we all have great frens to hang out with (HAHA ME!), yet something...u know something is just amiss. guess we are still very suited to a school environment. oh wells. ay whatever. it's just some thoughts i had the moment i woke up jus now. hope u r working n not reading my blog now man.

fisherman village was good cept for teh strong wind. songs were played according to our wishes. haha. like real. jus plain coincidence. ayy. i wanna drink mos burgerr milkk teaa noww. feel like eating their fish burger too. hungry hungry like sai. haha. hope my lunch time is early.

results coming out alr. really dono how to face it man. haha. really not tinking bout it at all. whatever it is...shall be optimistic now lah uh. also...feeling so sian bout uni course. really dono what i feel like taking n what really really interest me. to say taking accountancy is my interest will be a lie. i m taking that cuz it seemed the safest route to take n my parents strongly want me to take it. it's not that i don wan to take accountancy...it's just that i have zero interest in ANYTHING n i m jus taking what is placed before my eyes. it's like i try to like things like engineering? business? economics? blah blah blah...i still have no interest. at least now most of my frens have something in mind...like they know they want to teach cuz they love teaching. for me...i know i m going accountancy...but do i like it? i really dono. ayy...if only i can go back to jc days where i just study my four sub. now i have to choose. n its so sian...cuz i really dono what i want. oh well.

nowadays...feeling rather empty inside me. like somehow something is missing in my life. when i m working...i look forward to end of work ie. end of the day. and when the end of the day comes...i dono what to do n jus head home to sleep. it's like..so aimless. been feeling tis for quite some time. like everything is going ok for me...i have a job, no probs with job, have money to spend, like u know no disruptions in my life so far...yet i still feel that something is amiss. i also dono what direction am i heading to. direction as in ay dono uh...at tis pt of time...i really dono what is myself..who is myself..how is myself...been going out less often...jus keeping to myself most of the time...and few days ago i realised that i cant take tis direction any longer. it's just so sian. (somehow i feel that maybe i feel empty or just something amiss is cuz of me being so intro now) anyway, SO now i have decided to jus try to be my old self. jus my old self. and hope i can be filled MAN MAN n no longer feel empty.

sometimes i feel that human beings are just so greedy. they jus want more and more. i m a typical human being. everything is going ok for me and yet i jus wan more to fill the emptiness inside me. really pray to God that i can live happily each day, happier the next day and even happier the next day.

Ok its not THAT that irritated me. it started with some customers who INSISTED that they have a bill to pay for..den i kept checking and told them the com had no records of their phone numbers den i ask for ic no. and freaking them screamed at my face saying that they dono their freaking ic no. (like WTF lah), den fine...i manage to search the bloody names and found it...and it had ZERO outstanding payment. kao. 1st. waste my time. 2nd. kena shouted at for nth (cuz she immediately shut her gap when i shifted the whole screen for her to see the BIG BIG ZERO DOLLARS). 3rd. THIS particular customer chao triggered off a string of unreasonable customers. 4th. i was in such a good mood initially and cuz of her, kao..my mood totally changed till i just felt like crying lah.

OK thats not all...had to entertain a whole string of unreasonable requests (which were totally UNHEARD OF ever since i started work at starhub). it was EVEN worse cuz i had this freaking ulcer on my tongue that totally obstruct me from talking normally. so while i was explaining the SAME thing over n over n over n over AGAIN for some customer, i totally feel like DYING lah. SERIOUSLY, today is the damn freaking first time i feel so irritated totaly. seriously hope today will be the first n last. KAOBEI lah. oooooh. and some pple rolled their eyes totally when we were tryign to explain stuff to them like WTF lah.

freak. today better be teh first n last time i m so pissed. what's teh occasion man. vday only WAD. come here make so much noise, and think u got money damn big issit. some customers jus tink money can solve EVERYTHING. ah whatever. freak all of dem TODAY. tmr will be a better day.

HMM enuf of pissifying stuff...hope everyone out there had a great vday man. heh, happy frenship day to all my frens too. =))

Ay, father going back to china next sunday...feeling a bit sad. oh wells. somemore results coming out on 4th march i tink since o level results coming out on 28th? haha. so SCARY can. tsk tsk. SCARY. oh wells.

nameless MOOD now mann. fwah. oh yaa...thanks miss liew yiling for dropping by and passing me my vday card. haha. was really so pleasantly shock to see you. oh wells. u grew prettier I THINK. maybe i was blind jus now. haha. anyway, thanks a lot yup yup =) really appreciateeee it. haha. so damn long nv see that spastic handwriting of urs. OH WELLS. do drop by more oftennnn man. =)

Anyway, my tag board has become rather interesting with the new addition of another 1985 baby, shellen. haha. now i have nanas tagging me, lawyers who are dying in sch tagging me and some times a good and bad paradox. oh wells. who is no one? anyway, take care pple. thanks for ur concern =) really touch-ED by it. =)

finally went to collect pay today from raffles pri. it was so freaking far considering i went there by bus. ergh. den spent the rest of the day in town, going into every single shop in heeren n far east. was just bloody heck trying to distract myself. ay. hear exciting stories too, told by some pple. cldnt believe what i have heard. oh wells. hope things get even more exciting. thats the way to go when u r bumming ard and not in sch. sch disciplines u. haha. thinking of it makes me jus smile mann. haha. ok in a better mood now. seriously, i miss exciting stuff. in vj, exciting stuff happens all the time, thats why i m nv bored. this yr, sucks totally...everyday is so boring. now...HAHA. whatever, someone is gonna kill me for my saddistic attitude towards this.

sian...my next off day is on sat. everyday have to work. four more days to my next off day. funny how last time i love counting down to the end of the next paper...and now i m countin down to my next off day. i wanna go out on fri night. anyone free? yirong... this is to u man...if only u r in spore now. sometimes i really wish u were here to help me unscrew things. ergh.

i have lots of stuff to say. who can i tell to? eugene is in army. caught up with him yesterday...was so nice talking to him again...he is now locked up...so who can i tell? its so damn frustrating. ergh. fucking frustrating.

we temp staff have a table by ourselves...a bit anti-social but really lah...if sit with the perm staff pple, will feel so weird. anyway some perm staff were coming to the table to cheeeeeers with randy. haha. ordered a jug. drank quite a bit. luckily lighting was quite dark...cldnt see my super bloody red face. learned how to play cai quan (yes yes i damn suaku i din know how to play) courtesy of shiping.

Anyway, mr randy woke up at the wrong side of the bed today...hmmz he seemed rather moody. hope he is better now man...listening to teh constant crapping of that stupid aprilyn. and of cuz shiping's WEIIIIIIIIII (and the moving back action). haha.

i tell u...leslie is a damn freaking idiotic person!!! wha lau....go round tellin pple i m mayping lookalike. okay doesnt matter if its that...now she changed the name to mayzhu. ya like THANKS. and nvm...she doesn't only tell herself that i m mayzhu...she go round broadcasting it. seriously. no one can beat her to that man. her that mouth ah.....GRRRRRR. groans. tsk. anyway, back to jus now... sophie fetched us out to our bus stop haha...cldnt stop laughing at the way aprilyn and christina squeezed at the front seat. yes FRONT SEAT...the two of them. haha. anyway, feeling so happy cuz managed to save on the cab fare...me and shiping din take cab. woah!

hmmz...thats all bout it for today...work is getting so irritating with everyone not having their bills and we have to print for them, haha. anyway, seriously, dono why nowadays damn few customers...we three at info like super stone. today was so stone till we started taking out all the pamphlets and packign them. it was rather fun packing them and cussing siemens for printing so MANY of them. super waste money and paper lah. oh wells. as long have customers take them can alr lah.

TMR OFF DAY. hmm means today i mean. since its 1plus am liaoz. aiyo POOR thing shiping tmr doing opening. mwahahahaha. wheeee! so excited my papa coming home tmr...gonna have a great lunch with the family (when u start working u will jus miss having meals with ur family...). DEN GONNA GO OUT WITH DEAREST!!! woahhh! soooo damn freaking long nv go out with her liao. i liek totally lose contact with her. HELLO ARE U THERE STILL?!?! haha. hope tmr she doesnt start shopping for skirts. SO IRRITATING lah. wheee. at least i finally make full good use of my off day. oh ya...morning must go raffles pri collect my pay (so sian diao)...have to go all the way there. ayyy..whatever. hope my off day will be good! oh ya...oso need to go bum buy my shirtssss....having saleeeees. =) i miss dearest mannnnnn!

k k i m off now. no reality shows to watch tonight. gonna sleep now. so sad big fat obnoxious fiancee finish liao. ayyy. tiredddd and drowsy. haha. NIGHTS!

Realised i m actually quite bored of working life. My colleagues have been rather great as things are improving among all of us. With the new addition of shiping and kelly, it's like much more fun. Ayy, things are definitely better for me as i don feel so stress out by the people and bosses. Somehow, things just got better in teh process. BUT, i am just damn bored of the retail hrs working life. HMM, and maybe the job itself. printing bills...answering questions bout idd, pre-paid cards, maxonline blah blah...its really slack...BUT ya...i m really getting bored of it. its like the equivalent of attending tutorials and lectures. how i wish i can pon them (haha, i know i cant). Oh wells, just hope i can garner some new interest in the job? BEsides the boredom within me...i actually look forward to meeting and mixing with the people working in starhub. People like leslie(the idiotic one who always say she wanan pinch meeee), michelle christina and yOU YU (the three who started the LMP thing), siti k (who is a damnnnn nice and always willing to teach pple)...ayu (freak...always calling me strawberry shortcake ALONG with kelly who isn't much taller either), hmm and recently mr bing boon (really, he scared me initially...look CHAO fierce - so i m going to be super punctual for work since he is gonna keep a look-out for me...and anyway, as i was saying...NOW i find that he is really a damn cock person! always sneaking to the info desk and jian shi me do work...damn stress one can...), heh...den there's nancy...man...she REALLY look DAMN young. seriously...i can't believe she has a kid! she's very nice too! then there's ashley and zamirah (fierceeeeeeeeee. but can be damn nice if they wan to pple =)). NV forgetting rosalie (is that how u spell?), florence, CHWEE MENG AND TERRY (the freaking two slackers...jia zhua like sai)...yep impression of these four the greatest cuz they were the ones who taught me how to do stuff teh first few days of work. oh wells. wonder how is that idiotic CHWEE MENG AND TERRY. will nv ever forget their rabbits and crabs when i was tryign to get off day on 16 jan. grrr. HMm...and the rest of the staff..they r very nice too but somehow i feel a bit scared to talk to them. seriously, they look fierce to me. really hope one day i can start talking to them too. oh wells. Just praying that i can start being interested in the job itself again (dont think it will take too long). Yepz.

Hmm, today had dinner at PARIS restaurant at TM. tell u...it SUCKS TO THE CORE. the food suckssss big time. KAO. nv had i eaten such a sucky buffet. don ever waste ur money there. So long nv talk to eugene too. couldn't stop laughing when i saw his head. haha. he really looked COCK. fishball head lah he. oh wells eugene is still the same...jus that a bit more vulgar now. the army stories he was telling us were damn funny. haha. oh wells. so long nv see nana tan too. the last time i saw her was like two weeks ago? but that was like few min only when she came with adel to collect the shirt? so more accurately, i havn't seen her since...man...7-8 wks ago? Haven't talk to her too or anything. ayyy...she's still the same old her man. haha. and WOAH! she's taking driving lessons at the same centre as me. hope we can take some lessons on the same days. SHE'S REALLY THE SAME MAN. still irritates me totally. hais. really miss those days when we just sit together and i kena irritated and slammed by them. gee. also saw soem photos in nana tan's hp...taken when we were mugging in the canteen...really miss those mugging days...sighz. heard nana tan going to europe for a month. man...better do more catching up with her b4 she goes away.

went to watch electra after that, the whole plot sucks. so duh...the movie sucks. so don waste ur money on that too. go watch phantom or fockers...both worth the money. oooh, don watch hustle too. it's a damn waste of money. is aviator nice???? someone tell me whether its nice k. haha. the next movie on my list.

Lastly, before i m done with the post, wanna put up a tribute to my bestest, jaccc! yepp. was her birthday 8 days ago. she is really the greatest and funniest fren anyone can have. don look at her so gentle and stuff...all act one. she is damn irritating. ok i know i call everyone irritating...but she really IS. pure kind. Hmm, she has been there for me last yr...when i was down n stuff...mugged for our prelims and As together (kfc, delifrance, burger king, airport, her house, compasspt, parkway, sch classrms, library...) den watching kaixin been tortured by yiling (eh ling...wad a shit lah u haha), wooohing and ooohing bout slyyyy while admitting that taufik sings better (and cussing him along the way), smsing and screaming when maia and sly were the bottom two,rynning after sly's bus when we were SUPPOSE to mug for econs mcqs... going gary chan house to have tuition(and always trying to meet zongwei so he can pass us the hw), sleeping like a TOTAL PIG after mugging everynight and not replying the goodnight msges, listening to songs and creating a mess out of all the lyrics (cussing jamie yeo too cuz she's always so full of herself), ayyy...super lots more...i shall keep them in my memory for now. shall release them at a later date. BASICALLY, wanna say miss liew has been a damnnnnn GREAT fren of moi. played the role of bestest best (no one can replace for sure), there for each other when whoever is down, creating jokes that we will always reemmber for lifeeee (i m damn sure of it) AND now that she has turned 19, and we are living in the freak yr 2005, hope everything will turn out good for her. yep. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU JAC. SWEET NINETEEN YA? always my bestest! my bestestttt! =)

1am liao. and i cant sign into msn. pissed. haha. hope the army guys are settled down in camp liao. another week of work ahead! SIGH. so looking forward to rest rest rest. take care pple.

yep...my little note to another someone out there, stop spreading stuff bout us working in starhub when u do not know anything at all. so ya. stop it ya? i don wish to hear anymore UNTRUE stuff bout us spread by you.

Okok...den towards closing time, suddenly heard this staff's ringing tone...a song that i listen to damn frequently when i was muggign for As...den i suddenly realised i miss schooling a lot a lot. i miss vj damn bloody a lot. i miss cheering vj cheers, doin their mass dance, wearing their uniform...just everything freaking thing. miss band, miss pon-ing EITHER band pracs or lectures or tutorials, miss jiting persuading me to go for lectures, miss my class girls buying sausages from the western food store, miss EVERYTHING. ergh. den suddenly the cold hard fact of the guys going in in another few more hrs hit me so damn hard. okok...i will only miss a certain few frens. ayy. damn sian diao. somemore tmr i am working till 9pm. how the heck do i go for nite o. i din even go for a single day of orientation. ayyy...i am so jealous of those pple in vj now. having so much fun. ayyy...really...pple always say...when u r studying, u will feel like working damn a lot...and when u work...u will jus wan to turn back time and go back to studying. i rather study now. seriously. i wanna go back to be with alllllll my frens. ay. SIAN. i am feeling so sad now. =((( ergh.

anyway, dono whats wrong with me nowadays. i am always doing the wrong thing and saying the wrong stuff...but i have been like that all the while..i tot? why do i get so fierce reactions nowadays? so fierce that i m very taken aback. ayyy very sadd. haha. i m sad... maybe i shld jus grow upp. the prob has always been me.

few hrs later, audrey called me...say three of us got the job, man, i was so happy lah. i was rather sian diao cuz the probability of three of us gettign the three jobs were quite...ha...uncertain. oh wells. jiu shi we got the job. so had to head down to taka again to sign the contract. after signing..went to tm again to meet jac. so...we took mrts like dono how many times lah. so TIRED. really damn tiring.

ya ok so three of us will be working...yepp. pay is 7 per hr. overtime is 14 per hr. so i am very and only excited bout working overtime. haha. ayyy...hope everything turns out well. starting work next monday.yepp. can go lunchie with jac too! haha. yep yep. new yr eve coming...so exciting. =)

i did some thinking after midnight...which was bout two hrs ago. think while i watch some kanasai-ly stupid alien show. total waste of my time. and ya. as i was saying...did some thinking and eugene complemented my in-depth thinking again. fcuk it. i jus cant seem to be thinking properly bout some issues. some issues jus seem to bother me damn a lot some times...and yet some times...i jus cant be bothered at all. ayyy...and it doesn't seem to help that all the guys are going in army soon. sian diaooooo. maybe i need a job. a job. yep. i m going to work. to work for the distraction. i need some distraction. right now. maybe next yr will be a better yr for me.

dono. i hate growing up. jus hate it when everyone ard me start being or acting mature. ayyee...maybe i can go army sia. haha. whatever. i badly need to sort out whatever i m tinking. a little distraction will help.

After that went adel's house...time passed so fast lol..when we reached her house it was almost 7..ay den slack here and there. din stay at her house for too long cuz i wanted to spend some time with my mum. and what did i get?!?! kaobei. ayyy noo...its christmas...shld jus diam. whatever man.

Stay at home on thurs...went lunching with jac though...only spent 1 hr with her cuz she had to work. oh wells. den wed went to watch ocean twelve with dear souly. that night went for my chill-out session with eugene. haha...chilled out till 1am. oh wells. always looking forward to out chill-out sessions cuz that is the only time when we can bare all. haha. and damn sad that we only have 13 more days left. ayy...hope can chill-out with him more. our chill-out sessions are always impromptu...nv arranged. oh wells. ooh neway back to ocean 12...it was so xin ku for me can...i had to follow the subtitles damn closely cuz the characters were talking damn fast n chim. haha. cldnt undrestand lots of it. oh wells.

tues...hmm i totally forgot what i did on tues. really no idea. OH...i had lunch with aprilyn and jac...a damn long lunch which lasted till 5plus pm i tink...haha. talked bout everything under the sun. ya b4 she flew to taiwan. and yessss. i blogged that night lah. chey. hahaa. so why am i talking bout it even in the first place.

neway, spending a really lonely christmas. those that i really wan to talk to are not online. and the one that i love to talk to jus went off. ay. sian. i shall jus wait for another half n hr...and see whether whoever...etc will be coming online. or it will be a damn sian christmas man...like i said all thanks to my mum. ok i jus cant stand it...i jus gonna kaobei. i dono what is so wrong to sit in a car driven by someone who jus passed his/her driving test. kao lor. like what the heck. if everyone tinks in this way, might as well don learn driving and i forever no need to sit in my fren's car. i so made the right choice not to tell my mum bout ANY of the car rides i took before this whole yr. and jus now i jus told her nicely say i gonna go a drive with eugene...and she jiu shi kaobei and kaobei. den i used the excuse bout my bro not letting me use the com...so whats teh pt of me staying at home. and she immediately went to kaobei my bro ask my bro to let me have the com. of coz, my bro was DAMN DAMN PISSED. and here i come online, the pple i so wan to talk to are not online at all (must be out celebrating)...and i feel so bad passing teh com back to my bro...i tried...and he totally was damn pissed and said forget it. all thanks to my MUM. ergh...and by the time my msg reached eugene, he was alr driving. so WHATEVERRrrRRRRRRR. lonely lonely christmas. dearest where r uuuuu. the others....*screams* where r uuuuuuuuuuu. SIAN ZI BUA.

Nvm, shall savour the tot of spending christmas 2005 with my ntu frens. HAHAHAA. oh wad a sad laughter. ergh. whatever. sculyl i end up in smu or nus. ooooh, den i can spend it with my smu mates....or nus mates. ayyy...whatever lah. the yr ahead looks so fun, yet scary.

i m jus typing paragraphs and paragraphs...cuz theres really nth for me to do now...jus waiting. *wah i m going mad* maybe shall go write frenster testis for my interesting frens. hahahaha. whatever man. all thanks to my mum. merry lonely christmas to ME.

Stayed over at band chalet yest night...last min decision...neway, had lotsa fun. haha. OOhh..i need to say this...the arts fac pple..i realised that they are ACTUALLY quite normal pple like us. mwhahahaa...okok whoever don kill me. but ya, quite useful to talk to them more...can learn more vocab sia. haha. Aprilyn going taiwan tmr...ay...will only be back in a week's time. jac is working. souly is working. the gays are gyming. adel is ntu-ing. glenda is dono-doin-wad-but-jus-always-VERY-busy. van is going thailand. what am i doing man. nth productive at all. gee. must buck up and find my direction. hahahaa. that was a damn sad laughter. ayyy if only i can get out of spore this period of time before we go cruise. it will be perfecttt! haha.

I realised thru all the very many gatherings we had over the past period after As...i really learned lots of stuff bout myself. haha. One very impt thing is i am a damn super sentimental person. as in...when everyone is tog having a meal...its like its jus one of the many meals we will hav tog where we will talk cock...but nowadays its like when they ARE having teh meal...many things will run thru my mind. things like this may be one of the last time everyone is able to sit down tog and have a decent meal...hmm soemthing like i have stop taking all these for granted. i cherish every single moment spent with anyone. yep. seriously, next yr, everyone will be so busy with their own stuff...and plus the guys will be mia-ing...it will be damn damn hard to get everyone down for something simple like a meal.

Man...i feel as if i am typing some speech before i die. haha. ayyy...jus feeling cock lah uh. wanna tell everyone out there to cherish every moment u have with anyone ard u...yep...u really really will not know when the pple ard u will be gone. when they are gone...u will start to regret. start to wonder, why when he/she was ard, i had spent all my time fighting with the person, being super pissed with the person, being moody with the person, being sian diao with the person, being whatever with the person. ya liek playign mind games like that. come on man...jus think lesser, think simpler, listen lesser, talk lesser, u will be happy! yep. and if u don do whatever that has been mentioned above...like being sian diao with teh person, when u looked back, u will be thankful that u have spent every moment with the person happily, and not playing mind games.

Ya..u can be frens...damn good frens with some pple now, but next time u might not be...YET u know u EVER ever spent some great times with them. Ay...really love all the pple ard me now. they rockk. haha. don really wanna tink bout uni life now...too far and too pessimistic for now. SO therefore i m not tinking. shall jus live every moment now. don bother too mnuch man. yep yep. lets pray my dad will be back from china soon so i can start watching 4 pirated dvds from china everyday. oh do u know my dad bought this dvd player from china so i can specially watch all my pirated dvds which wun play on xbox. oh wells. i have finished watching all he bought the last trip. gee. i wan to watch two movies now. meet the fockers and phantom which is coming out! ya...these two movies in the THEATRE. haha. so come date me man. ahhaha.

ok i m done for now. wanan watch extreme gourmet 2. take care pple...=) (and oh, i m so gonna crash orientation...i super super miss it cannnn...those ogls out there...treasure it. it is the ONLY happy memories u will have in year TWO. hahaaa before all teh mugging....)

anyway, forgot to add...i m gonna miss aprilyn n j...blah bleh bleh even more. geee...get what i mean? fwah. blahhhhh where rrr uuuuuuuuuuuu mmmmaaaannnnnnnn. guess i m losing 1% of my importance...and counting...

okok, why prom sucks?? cuz the food sucks, the program sucks and most importantly the emcee suckkkkkkkkkssss! KAOS lol...i really really do appreciate the effort the SCs had put in in organising this for us, but then again, is 90 bucks really worth all that? Seriously, the food portion sucks. We paid 90 bucks too for glenn ong not for some ala-can-can za bor who cracks DAMN COLD jokes. kaobei. and teh door gift..oh my god...nov issue of cleo? and two pieces of chocolate? kaobei again. AYY, the only reason i can think of why we had paid so much was to pay for the lucky draw prizes. xbox, ipod mini, some hp which hasnt been launched in spore. whatever the case is, i STILL tink we had paid tooooo much for this sucky poorly-oprganised prom. haha WHATEVER. luckily there were US to make up for it...taking pics had nv been so fun in my life. hahaha cuz everyone looked good for once. haha.

Ya man, den after that took my stuff from the odac rm and check in to may may's room. hahahaa. changed and then zhiheng's fren send us to chinablack. after careful tots...i wld really like to say that CLUBBING SUCKS. maybe cuz it was bloody freaking crowded that night. and that i caught someone smoking. and that the music sucks when someone appeared (hahaa). and that i was feeling something bout something. hahaa. oh wells. but the first three hrs were damn fun. haha. jus dancing n dancing nonstop. din drink much cuz they din allow me. after the first three hrs...started to become damn tired. oh wells.

after club 5 plus am cabbed down to may's hotel rm again...den decided to share cab home...overall was a damn tiring but fun day.

Neways...uploaded the pics of all related-to-s21-fotos so that they can all stop buggign me and stop not-smiling for my camera. the prom pics too! gonna leave my blog as it is for now since i wun be back till a week plus later. today go KL...comign back on wed 4pm. den next morning flying to HK!! hope i can get some niceee stuff at both places. heh...gonna miss someoneee so much! 1 wk of not seeing yOuu!!! time to say bye bye when i come back from KL. yong bei le. :!

EVERYONE ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAY K K. hahaa....LIFE's GOOD!
okok my apologies...class-related-fotos wun be up. haha...cuz i havend one the captions! oh wells. promise will be up after i am back. oh, forgopt to add, DHS prom was sooooooo SOOOO seriously much much better den tis prom. =)

Anyway, had a super weird dream. the whole s45 class was inside. and zw was irritating me like shit inside. why the heck did i dream bout that class n not my own class? haha. ya it was damn weird lah.

okok tink i will be updating rather often. haha. just read mod's email..yay! we r so gonna know who is the spammmer bastard in my old blog. i am so gooing to mr police with it. haha. scully the person is someone i know. kao. that will be so embarrassing. better hope it's not someone i know. thnx mod =)

Jus hope i can stop feeling terrible by today. tonight was good. tried not to think bout it at all and it did help when the pple i was with din plunge into a physics paper 3 how-u-get-tis-and-dat-answer discussion. ya, luckily. went to watch shutter. jus return home. hmm, the movie was overall boring, save for the sudden images popping out and music getting irritatingly loud to prepare u for something when there isn't something. haha. let me see, i watched half of teh movie i think. was behind my sweater all the while. anw, the only fantastic thing bout tis movie was teh twist. it is indeed a very good twist. hmmz, so guess if u r n for such TWISTS, go watch it den, haha. it jus isn't as fantastic as what the pten make it out to be, but def something new compared to all teh jap and jorean scary shows.

Ay, i jus cant accept the fact that i screwed up my physics. bloody freak. ergh. Is there anyone out there who screwed it up too and not really in the holiday-mood yet? come come talk to me! guess i will feel much better. oh ya, one thing, i cant socialise for now. i jus cant, no matter how hard i try to make myself to. i don like socialising. for nuts. i am weird, now. forgive me if i offend anyone (though i am always offending pple in the past, i am not sorry bout it), but now if i do offend ya, my fault for now. whatever.

Gosh, i am so gonna miss listening to p10 in the wee hrs of the morning...miss jamie yeo's stupid quotes, miss calling in to win tis and that whenever i was so sick of studying, miss sleeping at irregular hrs, miss msging nonsense pple whom i damn long nv msg, miss msging pple bout the champions and singapore idol cuz that was the only source of entertainment we had, miss tis n dat. nvm...shall do all these stuff for the very last time...TONIGHT. hahahahaha. after TONIGHT, i can officially start missing all the stuff i jus typed. oh wells. maybe i shall go visit teh airport one night and pretend i am still mugging for the As. haha. what a long long logn way we have come man. come on, twenty plus papers we have sat for...woahhh...jus imagine like 3 mths ago i was still feeling so nervous bout my physics PRELIMS prac. hahaha. sia lah. jus have this feeling i will feel so AIMLESS after tmr. like nth to do. haha. heck. i jus hate studying and the feeling of guilt when i am slacking.

Okok, rachel has been a very nice person. she rock for ONCE k. ya only THIS once. stupid her always threatening me. tsk. she and her fattails and whatever it is. bartokkuteh? kao. it WASN'T me i repeat who came up with this ergh and grrr user n pass. so irritating right? CATS. yucks. i hate cats. u shld go seee her msn foto. OH MAN. totally cannot make it. haha. whatever it is, thanks LAH ok. u r so irritating. wonder when u can stop being the irritating u. (i mean i really tot u had changed for teh better after all these mths...i even forgot that u were THAT irritating until u started all ur nonsense talk) okok whatever, stop correcting whatever english i have typed wrongly or what.

Ay...anyone has singapore idol tickets? i BADLY want to go. hahaha. k k back to mugging. thanks ya again? pls take down all the phases which has words like 'rachel' 'rocks' or whatever ard my blog. eyesore can. =)